J A s L a i r

5.28.2010

hey folkies

nothing much to write. i haven't been much here--been busy with naver, lingering there since la-la time and hongkong new year getaway (if you know what i mean) and as suck as it seems i'm improved a bit on my mandarin. not that cool. recently i'm studying korean, and watching too many how i met your mother episodes over and over again. sounds boring right? i'm super sorry. just waiting for college starting on falls just bore me out especially after putting my studio out. ah yeah, did i told you i'm going out of town for college? haha I didn't meant to brag on, sorry, but after all escaping the city might be all i need--nee hee, I love the city (my job forces me actually) and well, yeah, i ran out of words to tell you how insane these few months has been, but now i'm out of filthy scheming business and any personal vendetta (god forbid)!!!! it's just one day you realized you'll be mature and leave your personal problems as is. Oh no! speaking about maturity! i'm going to be 17 in less than two weeks!! ah yes another mumbling of myself...so, the point is...

see you someday, past-insecure-life.

Label: diary, nonsense

xx signed off at 2:30 PM

4.23.2010

usual grains

ok been a bitch for a while but i thought moving out wasnt so bad.

anyway, i almost get through senior year, haha! BLAH!

let's face it, by deleting this blog i may sounds coward, but yeah people told me to. ehngh, if those haters still following me until here...

they must brave enough to face mah-new-skill: the so called 'exploitating UU ITE'

so, readers,

the bitch is back.

Label: nonsense

xx signed off at 10:52 AM

12.31.2009

happy/new/year

no more strange guys/no more chasing odd dreams/no more going out at night/no more sad ending/no more gay(s)/no more swinging/no more backstabbing/no more good girl-bad girl/no more drama/no more pradipa.

i've got to move on.

but to where exactly?

time will tell.

let me enjoy this night.

and let this plane take me wherever it's going

welcome, 2010.

Label: diary

xx signed off at 11:03 PM

12.25.2009

you'll/never/know

what lies behind a girl sarcasm when she said she's okay and she doesn't need your help just because you grunts before you give her a hand,

she loves you.

Label: diary, love life

xx signed off at 5:33 PM

12.23.2009

hellish/epic/day/

i just realized my bestfriends are made from 'api neraka'. halah, lebay.
but it's total right, because i just came back from this 'small gathering'.

seharusnya sih; xaliber a.k.a mas adip juga ikut tp dia mesti UAS susulan. (jempol kebawah + emoticon maho)

pertama; ke sekolah, trs dari sekolah sm danu langsung cabut ke gading (dan entah kenapa seperti biasa gue sm dia selalu ketawa ketawa di mobil) >> berhenti di circle K. beli hansaplast buat kaki gue yang lecet lecet setelah pagi pagi latihan >> trs langsung ke KFC SMKG.

gue: eh eh kayaknya gue tau deh kepanjangannya SMKG
danu: apaan?
gue: seberang mall kelapa gading
danu: wakakakaka boleh boleeeh

sumpah untuk pertama kalinya gue bersyukur gue belum mati.

terus di KFC bos adrian udah dateng dan memberikan gue pin gotei, aaaaaaa cutey wutey. ternyata yg ngedesign si adip. (dalam hati: in purpose banget sih anak anak ini)
terus gue baru sadar ini tgl 23! YAKKK EPIC DAYYYY!!! (yang temenan sm gue sejak taun 2006 pasti tau ini hari apa) gue udah pede aja tuh nungguin adip dateng sambil ngerapihin poni--teteup yah yang ini jeng. trs adrian nlfn adip dan ternyata adip msh tidur--just like what i thought before hahahahahaa dan apparently dia harus UAS susulan. jadi dia ga jadi dateng.

trs ternyata annas a.k.a nyanyassh a.k.a namek a.k.a alien ijo a.k.a mas ganteng juga ga bisa dateng karena ~~ufonya rusak~~ sakit. yasudahlah ya. lalu datenglah shiris dan jadilah ini perkumpulan epic chinese (ps: shiris juga orang HK jadilah gue dan shiris nostalgia HK hahahaa)

oke rapat dimulai; ~~pre memory~~ fag. ya nggaklaaaaaaaaaaaah rapat entah knp jadi gue yang memimpin ~~mungkin karena gue punya bakat menggantikan adip~~ mungkin karena gue punya pengalaman di warungmusik dan kaskus kali yaaaaa hemm jadi tuh topic nya ya seputar gotei 13 the magnificent forum kebanggaannya adip--which adip is the main administrator ~~dan penguasa tunggal yang otoriter~~ dari forum tersebut. yasudahlah akhirnya saya sharing ilmu dan pengalaman terutama soal merch mengingat posisi saya ketika kepanitiaan pensi kemarin sebagai anggota tim kreatif.

lalu rapat kita pindahkan ke MKG karena gue pengen ~~ngeceng panas~~ dan kita pengen ke food court. di food court lebih cacat lagi karena fakta menarik bahwa DANU BLM PERNAH LIAT ICE CREAM MINIMELTS. ini yongkruuu sekali yaaaa. dan gue juga menjarah air mineral botol punya adrian.

tapi sebelumnya... kami menemukan ini di tempat parkir mall 5

ini mobil parkir nyamping gitu aja loh!

kontan gue sm anak anak ngakak saking cacatnya. satu mobil ini makan space parkir buat tiga mobil aja gitu. dan gue sm danu lsg heboh foto foto itu mobil (alay mode: ON) dan tau tau yang punya mobil dateng aja gitu yakni seorang ibu ibu berambut pendek agak jabrik dan begitu danu sadar, dia langsung ngacir (atau membal karena dia bulat seperti bola)

terus di food court kita rapat lagi *insert deep sigh here* kali ini less serious karena gue melakukan kebiasaan gue bersama sforza which issssss PERMAINAN JAM.
cara bermainnya mudah sekali, tunjuklah fashion victim terdekat dengan menggunakan jam sebagai koordinat penunjuk arah. misalnya di sebelah kiri ada tante girang; sebutlah "tante girang arah jam 9" dan kontan anak anak itu nengok aja gitu loooooohhhh dan kita ngakak ngakak. sumpah ini permainan epic banget.

lalu gue merasa bosan karena alay yang lewat sudah tinggal sedikit; dan danu mengusulkan kita ke fashion hub -- untuk melihat alay bukan untuk beli beli baju. gue dan shiris langsung mengiya kan dengan riang gembira. nah di perjalanan...
shitty, ada dua org tante tante dgn rambut warna kuning sasha mentereng dan pakaian super tabrak ijo kuning pink biru elektrik jadi satu sedang sibuk dengan telfon genggam masing masing. kontan gue dan tiga makhluk itu langsung ngakak jaya sambil lari lari ke fashion hub. di fashion hub ternyata danu malah beli the sims 3 -______-" good good.

dari fashion hub, gue dan tiga makhluk itu memutuskan untuk ke JCo, karena gue ngidam Jcool. lalu rapatlah lagi kita di JCo yang dihiasi oleh sesi foto foto gue dan shiris ;P

me & shiris
(saya jelas yg pake hoodie)

kemudian dengan riang gembira akhirnya hasil rapat ditemukan! YOOHOOOOOO! akhirnyaaaaaaaaa... walaupun tanpa ayah dan bunda pradipa akhirnya hasil rapat sukses dibuat dengan baik thanks to me & shiris. well sebenernya sih foto ini diambilnya pas masih di foodcourt soalnya foto ini lucu karena BUKUNYA GEDE BGT well haha efek kamera sih. untung gue cerdas; ye gak? hahahaha

pak adip tolong, saya disandera sama mereka berdua!

pas pulang ada yg lebih EPIC lagi. sebuah angkot bertuliskan XBER13. XBER >> xaliber. oh well....

inilah angkot penuh dosa tersebut

dan akhirnya gue sukses pulang membawa sejuta kenangan *lebay* dan besok pagi pagi buta gue sudah berada didalam pesawat yang akan membawa gue ke jogja. good news is; kami akan bertemu lagi (mudah mudahan) pas tahun baru. di paviliunnya adip di rumah kakeknya. we're gonna reunited again. we're gonna be EPIC. epic friends. yang dipertemukan di kantin belakang dan (if god is willing us) berteman sampai tua, seperti kami yang ada di the sims 3 milik saya dan danu; berteman sampai mati. now i can enjoy my flight and vacation. thanks for today guys

smoochies,

junoaggy

Label: diary, teman-teman saya, terharu

xx signed off at 6:19 PM

11.27.2009

all/the/hatred

i choose to ignored them

(gatau, sebel aja, buta apa ga bisa baca tulisan disclaimer diatas? a satyre diary--whatever i decided is none of your business, so fuck off)

Label: nonsense

xx signed off at 8:33 PM

11.08.2009

all/the/way/

(photo courtesy of "absurd sore sore webshow")

(L to R : hafis, me, aksa. they were one of the guys who were there to help me when i was down)

(photos courtesy of DWS photoworks)

no offense but i went through a lot of fears and tormented to write this post.

i just want to share, how we grew because of god.

do you remember who i am in last two years?

i was the one they called as "broken heart people".

i have nothing left, nowhere to go, inside i was already dying.

i kept blaming on God why i have to live my life this way, i kept the hatred. as i remember how i was addicted to him eventhough he hurts me--physically and mentally. he even forbids me to do music and drums, i don't know what the reason was. he kept me as a prisoner in my own love.

when we finally broke up, i found out myself miserating. i said i will not grew up well, i will never be a good girl, i will broke. i was hospitalized with strangle marks, cigar marks, burn marks, which makes me look like a frankeinstein. made me fall traumaticly with anyone.

then someone give me a passage; "god knows, but He waits"

this night i fall into a conversation with my drumline teacher. he said briefly, "have you ever think who you are right now? was it okay if you quit drumming once you have succeeded something? maybe if you were still with him, i would never meet you or work with you, or maybe you will not being recognised. your true self will forever hid behind a tyrant relationship. is that what you please?"

he was right. he's truly right.

right after my broke up i build my skill again.

and here i am.

if i was still there, will i be who i am this morning?

will i get up and make up and have junoaggy settled?

will i have my own money?

will i have my very own spotlight?

and will those kids run to me saying "coaccchh! we need you to teach us this!"

at a point i thanks god i have a friend who used to help me to move on. settle a brand new me. having tiny little blush like this made me grew.

and find my way back home.

maybe, if i still with him, i'm not who i used to be right now.

god knows the way.

all the way.

Label: diary, musical journeys, random thoughts

xx signed off at 6:12 AM

11.07.2009

lie/to/her

"ne triche pas sur son amour pour moi parce que je ne vous y fiez pas. vous pouvez me dire que vous m'aimez, juste après avoir fini de lui mentir"

X: i still love you

Y: why don't you tell me from the start?

X: i just cannot, i feel that was my mistake

Y: why don't you steal me back? why don't you get me back? did you already fallin in with her?

X: it's not what it is, i just...

Y: lame bullshit

X: yeah yeah, why'd you started the fight back?

Y: because i still love you

X: really?

Y: yes but what's the use? you already have a girlfriend and i already have a boyfriend

X: what if i broke her down for you?

Y: then you could broke me down for her. i'm sorry i don't trust you anymore.

(x is a boy and y is a girl - taken from real story that just happened two days ago)

"don't cheat on her for my sake because I don't trust you. you can tell me that you love me, right after you finished lying to her"

Label: diary, love life

xx signed off at 2:29 PM

11.05.2009

marilyn/manson/wannabe

and that is ME

hold the S because i am just an AINT

ps: i've been writing a song called bitches and loser for... 4 months the influences keep getting better since my influences was never far; (i love my gigs/i love my spotlight/i love my crowds/and no once could took them away from me/i've face it all/from bitches to loser/b is for bitches/l is for loser/and J is for junoaggy who have faced them all and survived/tales aint tales/b is for bitches/l is for loser/and G is for God who makes me brave facing them all) and manyou'll never could take my gigs away from me. and no one could ever take my new and precious listeners. man, i should nvr betray ya guys againnn!

call me manson wannabe, i'm so inspired after hearing "get your gunn" and "sAINT", and now i am having quality time after my first job after half a months. and i would like to thank you guys for being there for meeeeeeeee i love you so much, i never could pay you back for all of your kindness ♥

Label: diary, musical journeys, my own lyrics, proud person

xx signed off at 7:00 PM

11.04.2009

call/me/junoaggy

maybe i am not beautiful

maybe i can't speak fluently on five languages whatsoever

maybe i can't play violin or any other girlish music instrument

maybe i can't speak elegantly or behave sensually

but i have prides.

to say no and speak directly

and you can call me junoaggy

Label: diary, personal matters, proud person

xx signed off at 8:37 PM