name's juno slash aggy, having much trouble in the past, and having too much fun right now. after several months crying over my old blog which scrambled by anonymous haters, i started a new one. not really a new one. but few things had change and i had my life on shape. so, you haters better face me outside this blog because when you face me here, you are utterly idiot.
tadi ya gue long talking sama luthfi lagi.. minggu depan kita 1 taun putus, tp gue udah ga peduli. call me egoist, in fact, yes i am. trus tau tau gatau gmn jd ngmgn bandnya luthfi trus tau tau ngmgn syam..
i remember, last friday i had a fight with syam. i'm so sensitive, so intuitive, and maybe, naïve. yeah, so i cried and then he apologized. but the worst thing came like rain today, and here, it rains a lot. do you know that he put the weight on etoiles' arms? do you know he used to be with etoiles more than with his other projects? i do not know until today. and it hurts me a lot when i remember my useless acts last friday, it's like; hello, you've given the best guitarist ever which had a heart of steel and cool nerves, and you point him out for your useless sense? come on! you are not that stupid, ya kan gi?
gue bego. terus jdnya gue nangis lg deh td. nah jam 4 gw sms dia, mau minta maaf tp gengsi bgt bgt akhirnya gw arahkan ke topik lain yg menurut gw tolol. malemnya gue download no such things sambil telf nick dan gw nangis lg di telfon itu dan gw bener bener gatau mesti nyeritain ke siapa karena emang gw berasa bego bgt wkt sblm dia minta maaf akhirnya gw bentak dia lg, ya walopun udah baikan kan tetep aja gmn gt.. maaf ya bul ya, ga maksud kok.. :'(
dengerin josie nya blink 182 deh bet. kangen banget masa" itu.
di sms sama mantan 1 menit yg lalu. tepat ketika saya memutar lagu lagu blink. eurgh. then i wonder, hey kamu yang tampan, besok saya pergi dan takkan pulang kalau hari ini ada kesempatan kuingin kamu jadi milikku sekali lagi
a pretty little smile a junky little thought with some meaningful words kiss away the night drown in blasting saturday night..
(no courage by sesshounkidai thanks nilo for the lyrics)
i always loove this song :) ceritanya ada 2 orang yang sebenernya saling mencintai tapi ga berani mengakui gitu. ewwrgghh i am really sensitive with this topic.. anyway.. this blog always based on my real daily life so just guess what happen to me now. ahahaha.
love, it never been hurtful like this i want to stay write touch learn but my time is up gotta go, gotta hide dont show me your world dont teach me something.. i'm lost in your lusty imagination
positively i am crying when singing this part. aah sedih banget. gitu deh. bayangin dong saat mereka sadar tentang perasaan mereka udah telat trus si cewenya keburu kecewa sama si cowo..
yeah, it's just like me and you, mr 'kh'. me and you.
hmm brusan ada kbr baik dr temen kita di iscfis, georgina, room 20.. ktny dy br aja jadian sm salah satu sahabat gw, daanish. hmm. am i being so jealous, dear? no. gw cm gbs ngmg apa" soalnya georgie yg nembak duluan.. uhh.. agak shock juga soalnya georgie cuek bgt sm daanish, setau gw si. ahaha. and the fact is georgie sms me, tell me that she'd been in love with nizh.. THRILLING!! georgie yg cantik, a good queen, slalu riang gembira.. err.. nembak kaka kelas?? ok ok, gw cemburu! gw jg pgn jadiaaan.. scara gw jg jd aga males sm gbtn gw jg skrg. i'm out. hhhh, setelah smpt ribut kmrn, gw jd bt bgt.. jd mls sms, jd ga pduli..
hmm gotta find someone new, but i'm happy for u,georgie.. wish i have the courage like u to said somethng like that to senior, because i don't have one, and i'm too late..
gue menyadari hal terpenting yang gue lupa selama ini. seberapa pun gue lari dari orang yang gue benci gue bakal kalah karena yang namanya cinta itu lebih kuat dari benci waktu kamis kemaren gue curhat"an lah sama sepupu gue si andre. blah. yah gue nyadarlah a thing called this: gue ngga boleh benci sama dia. gimanapun gue pernah sayang sama dia dan mungkin sampe sekarang. mungkin gitulah keadannya. ga bisa berubah lah. gimanapun gue adalah cewe terakhirnya sebelum semua kejadian ini. dan gue juga bisa menerima luthfi sebagai cowo gue seutuhnya. gue harus belajar untuk itu. mungkin berat tapi gue tau gue bisa..
for my 101007. may God bless you and your bride. i love you. like u do yesterday :')
jangan salahin gue! salahin mos sama to yang membuat gue kehilangan koneksi ke dunia luar sementara waktu! well. anyway, gue udah kaya orang gila ngga keurus semenjak mulai bekerja keras di to. pulang-pulang ketombe gue bertumpuk dan badan gue merah-merah semua or it means: my oil alergy is umm.. (kumat bahasa inggrisnya apa yak?)
intinya gue baru sempet buka-buka lagi karena kesibukan gue yang tidak bisa diajak kompromi ituh. apalagi gue sekarang resmi menjadi designer grafis buat kaos" nggak jelas di salah satu online clothinglah. sibuk deh pokoknya.
sekarangpun hidup gue bertambah minimalis: no cousins and niece and nephew, lived (not too) faraway from my parents, kantong gue makin tipis dan dompet gue yang gucci itu ilang dan kembalilah gue ke dompet lama gue, trus 7390 gue juga error mlulu dan gantilah gue kembali ke ke 3220 bangsat gue itu *kutukan barang" lama*
yang namanya temen itu biarpun kepisah jarak sejauh 100 km pun hatinya akan tetap satu bukan?? yaahh akhirnya gue lulus. it means:
gue bakal masuk SMA, pake putih abu" dan gue bakal berusia 15 taon depann YIIPPIII!
gue bakal pisah sama temen" baik gue..
gue nggak suka hal yg kedua. berhubung gue udh diterima di labs rawamangun yang artinya gue udah bayar 17 jt bwat masuk, gue bkl berpisah sama manda, agung, indhina, sins dll dsb. haah gue ga mauu. gue udah cinta banget sama merekaaa! but well, this is the decision i made.. haah.. sediih banget gue. yasudahlah..
